It's from #7.9 "Never Leave Me." The full quote: "I already did it. It's already done... You wanna know what I've done to girls Dawn's age...? This is me Buffy. You've gotta kill me before I get out."
He's trying to convince Buffy to kill him, &, as we know, Spike's a fan of hyperbole. I've always viewed that scene as Spike trying to come up with the worst thing he could think of, in order to convince Buffy to actually kill him,, leaving it purposefully vague, so Buffy could fill in the blanks herself, with the worst thing *she* can think of. And none of that to me says that he's actually speaking truthfully, or specifically about sexual assault. Considering this is literally the *only* time anything even vaguely like sexual assault has been mentioned in his past, & the complete context in which he says it (ie: trying to convince Buffy to kill him), it just never struck me as based on anything actually true.
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Date: 23/06/2020 08:10 pm (UTC)He's trying to convince Buffy to kill him, &, as we know, Spike's a fan of hyperbole. I've always viewed that scene as Spike trying to come up with the worst thing he could think of, in order to convince Buffy to actually kill him,, leaving it purposefully vague, so Buffy could fill in the blanks herself, with the worst thing *she* can think of. And none of that to me says that he's actually speaking truthfully, or specifically about sexual assault. Considering this is literally the *only* time anything even vaguely like sexual assault has been mentioned in his past, & the complete context in which he says it (ie: trying to convince Buffy to kill him), it just never struck me as based on anything actually true.